OK, I kind of suck at blogging. Truth is, I know I only do this for myself. No one's reading, and that's OK. But I like doing it. So, probably the only "resolution" I'm making is to keep blogging. Who knows ... maybe 100 years from now someone will stumble on it and think I was an interesting person!
So, 2013 in review. I can't complain. The hubster and I both worked hard this past year, but we're both in good places in our jobs. Probably the best thing that happened was that my son finally ended his marriage, doomed from the beginning. He's single-parenting his 2 young boys, and even though he shared physical custody with the ex, he has primary custody. We've helped out A. LOT. in may ways - physically, emotionally and financially. But he's doing OK. Doing well, in fact. So that's good. And the ex wife was extremely difficult for all of us. She is bi-polar, and i think probably has borderline personality disorder as well, and dear god it was like walking on egg shells every time we were together. Honestly, I feel 100% less stressed with her out of the picture.
I did a lot of mom-stuff this past year. We went to Florida in February, Charleston in May, and Myrtle Beach in September. I do it for her, not me. It's been tough seeing her decline physically - she doesn't get around well, and she's pretty depressed. So I try to get her out, and when she can't do much, she gets depressed again. Vicious circle. But I want to do what I can.
If I have anything to complain about for 2013, it's that I felt disconnected from my friends. Not because anything happened, but because of various situations. We're all working a lot -- I guess it's the season of life when we've hit our strides in our careers -- and we're all dealing with various family issues that come with these mid-50's. Adult children who aren't quite grown, parents who need to be cared for, and marriages that are showing the strain of lack of attention. It's not an easy age to be.
I don't think I wrote about this, but I lost my first close friend in 2012. She had lung cancer. She was about 15 years older than the rest of our "gang", but she was like our much-wiser and oh-so-much-worldlier older sister. I'm still troubled by the reality of that loss, and the insistent reminder of my own mortality.
So, 2014. Lots of change coming. A merger at work becomes effective tomorrow. It's all good, but it's also going to be a tremendous amount of change. In fact, I think it's going to be the "Year of change". I hope I'm ready.
